Okay...I am finally here

I am right now sitting in Detroit airport...waiting for the connecting flight to Phily...
This is ONE BIG tiring stupid journey....
and add to it the confusion that my colleague who was supposed to travel with me has a different schedule...and I was banking on him to lead me and guide me through this maze...But...I guess I've done okay....actually good.

I am already home-sick....can't look at any 2-3 year old kids without thinking about Dhriti....called up home just now...and she seems to be okay...and doing good..

I really wish I wouldn't have to do this again...that is travel alone...without family...
Maybe earlier it was different...I mean pre-marriage...but now that all 4 years after marriage we've managed to stay together day-in/day-out...made me more dependent and too sentimental..:)

So long then....here I am and let's see what's in store...

It's over...

okay....so that lump on Dhriti's neck...that's nothing to worry about...atleast for now...
it is not any tumorous growth or whatsoever...
It could be some kind of cyst that might reduce in size over a period of time...thats what the doctors say...

So...its finally over...phew...the tension...the pain...

And one MAJOR piece of advice...never..NEVER check the internet, never google and find irrelevant information and then get scared...until the diagnosis by the doctor is done and over...Never..ever do that

A few thoughts....

--Why doesn't that lump on Dhriti's neck go away....why need a surgeon also to check her. Cant wait till I get to that hospital and get this over...I am not simply scared...I am shit scared...:(

--How to keep yourself occupied every day...every single day...?

--Can a person really become so lame and helpless if there is no means to travel...??

--I have a 100 things to do, all the time in the world to do them, but somehow things dont get going...why...??

--Can't I get something, anything noteworthy to do? I guess I should be asking for it first right, why can't I simply go and ask..? But then why should I?

--Photoshop is so much fun :)

--Someone's offering a crore (cool!!) for a good screenplay. Should I get enrolled in a workshop and learn script writing and screenplay...sounds better and interesting than a MBA :))

--Learning new things is always fun as long as you understand and get to implement it!!

--When can we actually earn "enough" and not bother about the EMIs' and the expenses...??

Something to look forward to...

Was arranging photographs in my folders over the weekend and picked some of Dhriti's. Planning to get them developed, hopefully sometime soon so that they can adorn the otherwise lack-luster TV cupboard in our house.

Dhriti's been having a lump near her throat (lymph-node) for the past 1 week. We were terribly scared intially as to what this growth meant, not sure what it is even now..

Giving her some medicine and hoping that whatever it is will subside and never come back again..,,