Some quick updates...
1. Shiva is in Dubai + Saudi...its almost been 3 weeks..and I am going nuts here. Things are relatively calm now..but one tough trip
2. I "celebrated" my birthday, my 30th and no fun at all :(
3. I will celebrate my birthday AGAIN once Shiva is back...with a new dress, dinner and all...no compromise there
4. Elections 2009 is over and I am disappointed. No, it was not that I wanted some other party to win and congress to lose. But still, post elections there is no change in government neither in center nor in state. Depressing man!!
5. I hate hospitals
6. I "should" learn car driving. Come-on, enough is enough
AND finally
I now have a friend who is an IAS officer!!!Yeayyyyy!!!!
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Rant...Rant...Rant
There are some things that I can't handle and cooking is right there on the top
It's not just cooking alone...it's eating in general. I mean I can't see myself giving eating a priority over say...sleeping, working, watching movies, anything.
And it's terribly unfortunate that I got married to a family that thinks cooking and ensuring that everybody at home is fed is THE topmost priority. (Gosh, I've read that line and yeah it soooo feels like this IS the top priority right, what else can be?) No, I am not against that. What I mean is...say you have a flight to catch at 9.30 PM, having dinner at 6 PM doesn't fit in the scheme of things for me(doesn't matter that you haven't had your lunch, no that doesn't count!)
okay...I'll relive the scene:
Me and Shiva go home at 5.30, he has a flight to catch at 9.30
His akka's home and is busy cooking by the time we go home
Me:!!!what you've started cooking already?!!!
His mom - Shiva has to eat right?!!!
Me (to Shiva) - What, you'll have dinner and go??????!!!!!!!!!
His Mom - Then? What else will he eat???!!!!!!!
See, the exclamations and question marks summarize the disparity of though process that both of us have.
I know it is not like that, but the kind of inference that I (nobody else) draw from this episode is:
1. I am least bothered about Shiva having dinner before he leaves
2. Not caring at all, at least not as caring as his mom and sis and the rest of them are
And to top this, I didn't accompany Shiva to the airport. How can someone think of doing that????!!!!
No one's really said anything. These are all MY inferences. And what do I get out of all this...?
I am left hungry coz nobody bothered to ask me to eat, I felt too stupid to ask and eat.
I didn't go to the airport, but didn't work either and am busy typing this stupid rant..
and I am left feeling even more depressed than what I was about an hour back
It's not just cooking alone...it's eating in general. I mean I can't see myself giving eating a priority over say...sleeping, working, watching movies, anything.
And it's terribly unfortunate that I got married to a family that thinks cooking and ensuring that everybody at home is fed is THE topmost priority. (Gosh, I've read that line and yeah it soooo feels like this IS the top priority right, what else can be?) No, I am not against that. What I mean is...say you have a flight to catch at 9.30 PM, having dinner at 6 PM doesn't fit in the scheme of things for me(doesn't matter that you haven't had your lunch, no that doesn't count!)
okay...I'll relive the scene:
Me and Shiva go home at 5.30, he has a flight to catch at 9.30
His akka's home and is busy cooking by the time we go home
Me:!!!what you've started cooking already?!!!
His mom - Shiva has to eat right?!!!
Me (to Shiva) - What, you'll have dinner and go??????!!!!!!!!!
His Mom - Then? What else will he eat???!!!!!!!
See, the exclamations and question marks summarize the disparity of though process that both of us have.
I know it is not like that, but the kind of inference that I (nobody else) draw from this episode is:
1. I am least bothered about Shiva having dinner before he leaves
2. Not caring at all, at least not as caring as his mom and sis and the rest of them are
And to top this, I didn't accompany Shiva to the airport. How can someone think of doing that????!!!!
No one's really said anything. These are all MY inferences. And what do I get out of all this...?
I am left hungry coz nobody bothered to ask me to eat, I felt too stupid to ask and eat.
I didn't go to the airport, but didn't work either and am busy typing this stupid rant..
and I am left feeling even more depressed than what I was about an hour back
Sunday, April 26, 2009
The Family - Getting into the groove
and suddenly one fine day he started sleeping in the night, all through the night, just like that...and then everything felt so normal and relaxed.
I am back at work, Dhruv is a looooot better and older. Now, all of us sleep at night, Dhriti has her vacation and so we sleep a little more...normally wake up only at 8 AM :)) So, it's bliss overall
Since I am back at work, there is not much time left to think and brood. I kind of like this chaos and everything now seems fine!
Dhruv's reached his first milestone-he can now turn around and sleep on his stomach!!
We thought boys are a little late and maybe he'll take yet another month to "tumble". But looks like this guy is in a hurry!
He still can't hold his head properly though and has a trouble pulling his hand once he tumbles, so there's a lot of crying.
Shiva's mom is here and so are Dhriti's cousins and the house is even more (maybe 10 times more) chaotic.
At times, when I can't stay back longer at office or I can't reach office earlier I get irritated (which is most of the times)
But then, like everything else I am hoping this will pass off also and I'll be able to find the right balance.
Oh...Shiva might have to travel this month for sure...and that's when the real fun will begin. I'd love to have my mom and dad here at Hyd. Not that I have an issue with my mom-in-law and sis-in-law staying over buuuuuut...mom is any day much more helpful. I'll be less guilty about staying late at office, waking up late, and 100 such things...
And yeah, I'll turn 30 next month!!!!!
Looking at how things have been happening all around I'd say I'm truly happy about the state of life in general.(touch-wood) So, what did I achieve?
Adorable kids and a happy family
Monday, April 20, 2009
When the going gets tough...
the tough get going...but then this is beyond that...absolutely beyond that....I hope and wish that the families are strong...I would do anything to ease their pain...just anything...
A family lost their 26 year old son in a couple of hours to something as serious as Leukamia....and with absolutely no warning...
A family lost their 1.5 year old kid to...don't know what...maybe seizures...
A husband lost his wife of 1 year to...again not sure what it was
This is all I've been hearing entire last week...I don't think stating this unfair is just enough...do we have anything else in the vocabulary to describe this...???
This is sooo so unfair..
I just don't know how to react...will I ever be able to get over this? Will we be able to live without any thought of what might happen later...tomorrow...the next hour...the next minute...
the kids are still young...and it's still a long long way to go...will this fear ever ever go away...and will I be able to stay my usual stable...rock-solid self??
Should I ask the god for help...? the same one who has taken away a child's life and created a void in their parents life...the same god..??Really?
A family lost their 26 year old son in a couple of hours to something as serious as Leukamia....and with absolutely no warning...
A family lost their 1.5 year old kid to...don't know what...maybe seizures...
A husband lost his wife of 1 year to...again not sure what it was
This is all I've been hearing entire last week...I don't think stating this unfair is just enough...do we have anything else in the vocabulary to describe this...???
This is sooo so unfair..
I just don't know how to react...will I ever be able to get over this? Will we be able to live without any thought of what might happen later...tomorrow...the next hour...the next minute...
the kids are still young...and it's still a long long way to go...will this fear ever ever go away...and will I be able to stay my usual stable...rock-solid self??
Should I ask the god for help...? the same one who has taken away a child's life and created a void in their parents life...the same god..??Really?
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
The Family - Night Watchman
Mom - Sleep deprived and nothing much to do
Dad - Sleep deprived AND busy
Akka - Rushing to school
Tammudu - Yes, the title is for him - THE nightwatchman
Yes, that's last month for you. This guy doesn't sleep earlier than 3 AM and that's when you are lucky, normally it is at about 6 AM in the morning by the time he is fully, properly asleep. But then when he is awake all night long and in the early hours, he smiles a lot and laughs at times (yes with sound!!) and then plays. But the moment he gets irritated you HAVE to carry him and walk, doesn't help if we hold him, we just need to get going...
So, the result, absolute lack of sleep, frayed nerves, biting anybody who wants to talk sense :) It helped a looooot that Shiva didn't have to travel this month and then we had his akka and kids over at our place for about 1-2 weeks. Now, April's suddenly looking very difficult. I know, I know, I said the same thing with March, but then we had help this month, god knows what's going to happen now.
Dhriti was back to school after a month and lots of backlog, yes BACKLOG for a pre-primary kid!!! Too many alphabets to learn.
We've somehow scraped through. She finished her PP1, first year in school and it is over already. Got very emotional in the ceremony they had at her school to celebrate the occasion. She danced for the "Bum Bum Bhole" number and felt SOOOOOO content and happy to see her up there.
Maybe things will settle down, and maybe the baby will get things right and sleep at night, maybe everything will be okay in the coming month.
What's life without a little bit (yeah okay lots of!!) hope???!!
Dad - Sleep deprived AND busy
Akka - Rushing to school
Tammudu - Yes, the title is for him - THE nightwatchman
Yes, that's last month for you. This guy doesn't sleep earlier than 3 AM and that's when you are lucky, normally it is at about 6 AM in the morning by the time he is fully, properly asleep. But then when he is awake all night long and in the early hours, he smiles a lot and laughs at times (yes with sound!!) and then plays. But the moment he gets irritated you HAVE to carry him and walk, doesn't help if we hold him, we just need to get going...
So, the result, absolute lack of sleep, frayed nerves, biting anybody who wants to talk sense :) It helped a looooot that Shiva didn't have to travel this month and then we had his akka and kids over at our place for about 1-2 weeks. Now, April's suddenly looking very difficult. I know, I know, I said the same thing with March, but then we had help this month, god knows what's going to happen now.
Dhriti was back to school after a month and lots of backlog, yes BACKLOG for a pre-primary kid!!! Too many alphabets to learn.
We've somehow scraped through. She finished her PP1, first year in school and it is over already. Got very emotional in the ceremony they had at her school to celebrate the occasion. She danced for the "Bum Bum Bhole" number and felt SOOOOOO content and happy to see her up there.
Maybe things will settle down, and maybe the baby will get things right and sleep at night, maybe everything will be okay in the coming month.
What's life without a little bit (yeah okay lots of!!) hope???!!
Monday, March 16, 2009
Quotable Quotes
Some interesting dialogues while playing in the evening
Dhriti: Ammulu (her cousin), you found the pencil---Great Job!!
Dhriti:Mummy, where is the eraser?
Me: Here, nanna
Dhriti: I have to use this eraser so many times, what nonsense!!
Dhriti: Ammulu (her cousin), you found the pencil---Great Job!!
Dhriti:Mummy, where is the eraser?
Me: Here, nanna
Dhriti: I have to use this eraser so many times, what nonsense!!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
And now I can't take my words back, can I?
No Shiva didn't go to KL yet though I have nightmares that the day might come soon and yeah it's his birthday today...Happy Birthday!!
And just so that it gets "recorded for eternity" here, he is THE BEST PERSON I've ever met. And yes, I mean it. How else do you define a person who stays up all night long carrying the baby, goes to the office in the mornings (yes, still busy) and still is sane. I also stay up all night long, but cant say the same about being sane part :)
And just so that it gets "recorded for eternity" here, he is THE BEST PERSON I've ever met. And yes, I mean it. How else do you define a person who stays up all night long carrying the baby, goes to the office in the mornings (yes, still busy) and still is sane. I also stay up all night long, but cant say the same about being sane part :)
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