The Family - The Month of Confusion

Mom - Too confused...Too tired...Too Touchy
Dad - Super-busy
Akka - Too many holidays spoil kids
Tammudu - Drink, Sleep and yes ONLY CARRY ME...no sleeping on beds!

That kind of sums up how we have been doing the last month...Now getting some background on THE FAMILY might help :)
Okay...we have a latest entrant in the family and its a boy!! And that kind of makes ours a complete family :)
So I guess its time to merge my previous blogs and have one for the family...and then decided to post monthly newsletters (atleast till the baby is a year old) so that I have one post per month..
Now that we are done with the intro...moving on to the subject..

Its been exactly a month since the baby arrived...and he's been in general good..
The delivery itself was over in a jiffy...never mind the fact that I had to wait for it for almost a month...!!
I went for my regular check-up in the morning only to come back at 4PM in the evening for getting admitted and before I could bear it any longer...the delivery was over at 8.30 (8.26PM) to be precise.

We came back home all good and happy....but then had to return back coz the baby had jaundice...that was really painful (I mean not the returning part...seeing the baby get the IV and the phototherapy). That day I learnt my first lesson..."No matter if this is a second child...you never know anything and you are never ready"

And then we came back yet again and my depression started setting in...The only thing I remember from my first post-pregnancy days very vividly is not about Dhriti...but about my depression...and it was back with a venegance this time around...I just couldnt stop crying at the drop of a hat...
and to add to all this...I wanted to exclusively breast feed the baby something I was not able to accomplish to my satisfaction the first time...
And this is something that I cant come to terms with...the fact that not being able to breast feed doesnt mean you are not good enough mom...or whatever...
I am still trying....

Came to the home town with parents...more relaxed...more at peace...but adding to the depression was the fact that Shiva had to go to KL...
Dhriti hasnt been going to school for so long...god knows what's going to happen once we start sending her to school from next week onwards...She's become very attached to her ammamma...

Now that a month is over...things seems to have settled down...I came to realise that we'll have to take one day at a time...
and with Shiva having to go back to KL again...and me leaving to Hyd..and Dhriti going back to school...March is one month to look forward to...:)

Life now is in snatches...between baby feeds and bigger baby's tantrums...
Worried about the bigger one...scared that she might be neglected...
Worried about the smaller one...is he getting enough milk...is he putting on weight...is he fine...? Coz again...if there are 100 things that can go wrong with a baby...your first child shows you 50 of them and when you think you are prepared and all set your second child comes in and shows you the OTHER 50...
Babies are like that...!!!


So...the chaos continues.....

Nothing...

Nothing is clear
Nothing is interesting
Nothing is happening
Nothing is impressive
Nothing is worth doing
Nothing is there to look forward to
Nothing...absolutely nothing

YES, I AM DEPRESSED!!
And the reason I am very worried (actually extremely worried) is there is nothing to be depressed about..Everything's just fine...it's just that I am depressed and nothing is fine anymore :(

So much has been happening!

Yeah I know I was really lazy...very very lazy to say the least..
There's been so much happening in Dhriti's life that it is unfair, it isn't logged.

Okay..she is now a school going kid. Amazing really!
And right from the day 1 she never cried, I left her at school the first day there in the class and went back home..
And no she didn't cry (though I was feeling very heavy hearted, sentimental and all that!)

June 23rd was when her school started...and she's enjoying it.
She started picking up some english words and tries real hard to converse in English.

I am having a tough time, keeping a straight face, all the while when she's blabbering off in English :))

Here's hoping that she continues to enjoy school and has a lovely time.

P.S: Only problem is she has to be ready by 7.30AM and THATS REALLY TOO MUCH!!!!!

Happy Birthday!!

Here's wishing myself a very happy birthday!! :)
Truly happy with the way things are going on in life...at peace..

Here's hoping for many more such fairy-tale days and living "happily-ever-after" scenarios...

Lots of things..and caught in between them..

If I look back at March, it would possibly become the most hectic month till date..
We've had just too many things going on...too many places we went to...
Heard about too many deaths...
First it was father of the aunty who stays with us at home..
and I had to send her off for 15 days to her home town. We had my MIL come in and take care of Dhriti...but I did have to do a lot of stuff...stuff that I am not good at...like cooking :)
Then suddenly my peddanannagaru passed away. A pity that I couldn't visit him often though they stayed in Hyd too..I felt sooo guilty and bad at not having met him for quite sometime..And he always liked me...wished me the best...was a humble person who loved his family dearly..
My father was broke...seeing his elder brother, who was surely better in health dept, pass away in front of him..
And then...as if we switched channels...we were off to Vja to attend my cousin's wedding...
Calling it "attend" would be an understatement...we had to "organise" the wedding....
But now, the "we" in the above statement would be an overkill...I did do some running around etc etc...:)

And in the midst of all this, Shiva celebrated his birthday...I really couldn't think of anything great to do for him on his birthday...but I DID COOK :))

Dhriti to the core...

She's finished her play school for the academic year!! Quite an achievement considering the initial days where I had to sit with her all through the 3 hours of her school.
Towards the end of it, however, she was going all by herself, enjoying and having fun at school. I don't really know if she grasps it yet, but yeah, I for one, will surely miss EuroKids.

Hopefully, her stay at Meridian will be much much much better...We got her the books and gave the measurements for her school uniform today!!
Before we knew it, she is already a big girl getting ready for school...!

But, to be frank, the books did give me a scare...I mean captial letters, small letters, cursive writing(!!!!!), numbers 1-50 all in PPI????!!!!
I wonder how much the kids will learn once they pass out in Std X?!!


Have to add though, managing her through the summer is already becoming a nightmare :((
She has become extremely moody, lazy, hot-tempered and irritating to the core.
Hope this phase also passes off soooon.

And god only knows, how I will be able to get her to school by 8AM everyday...:(

Sometimes...

you just suddenly realise that people are very important in your life...Not that you don't believe that...its just that with the day to day routine...you tend to even stop thinking about people, forget calling them, talking to them...
But it doesn't mean you don't care, they are there at the back of your mind ALWAYS...
Today morning I got a call from Putchu...she was feeling low...wanted to talk to somebody...so she called me...Suddenly everything came back, the 10AM meeting did not matter, the traffic jam I was stuck in did not matter, the deliverable that my team is trying to meet and doesn't even look remotely possible...all this didn't matter...
I wanted to be there...talk to her...share her feelings...get her out of that "low". But frankly, I couldn't do much...I spoke to her about some stupid things that she already knew...the daily and the routine stuff...

Amazing how things change...when we were in college...we really did not know the world outside...the problems...the struggles...yet we had loads of things to talk about...but now...when we are a part of that rut...when we are living here in this hell called "world", we know every nuance of it...we have got really nothing to talk about...!!!
After a 5 minutes conversation...it is back to..."So what else" or "Nuvvu Cheppu...?"

Have we really lost touch??

P.S: But the intention is still there. I really want to have those looooong conversations...those unending discussions...I really do!