The Family - The Month of Confusion

Mom - Too confused...Too tired...Too Touchy
Dad - Super-busy
Akka - Too many holidays spoil kids
Tammudu - Drink, Sleep and yes ONLY CARRY ME...no sleeping on beds!

That kind of sums up how we have been doing the last month...Now getting some background on THE FAMILY might help :)
Okay...we have a latest entrant in the family and its a boy!! And that kind of makes ours a complete family :)
So I guess its time to merge my previous blogs and have one for the family...and then decided to post monthly newsletters (atleast till the baby is a year old) so that I have one post per month..
Now that we are done with the intro...moving on to the subject..

Its been exactly a month since the baby arrived...and he's been in general good..
The delivery itself was over in a jiffy...never mind the fact that I had to wait for it for almost a month...!!
I went for my regular check-up in the morning only to come back at 4PM in the evening for getting admitted and before I could bear it any longer...the delivery was over at 8.30 (8.26PM) to be precise.

We came back home all good and happy....but then had to return back coz the baby had jaundice...that was really painful (I mean not the returning part...seeing the baby get the IV and the phototherapy). That day I learnt my first lesson..."No matter if this is a second child...you never know anything and you are never ready"

And then we came back yet again and my depression started setting in...The only thing I remember from my first post-pregnancy days very vividly is not about Dhriti...but about my depression...and it was back with a venegance this time around...I just couldnt stop crying at the drop of a hat...
and to add to all this...I wanted to exclusively breast feed the baby something I was not able to accomplish to my satisfaction the first time...
And this is something that I cant come to terms with...the fact that not being able to breast feed doesnt mean you are not good enough mom...or whatever...
I am still trying....

Came to the home town with parents...more relaxed...more at peace...but adding to the depression was the fact that Shiva had to go to KL...
Dhriti hasnt been going to school for so long...god knows what's going to happen once we start sending her to school from next week onwards...She's become very attached to her ammamma...

Now that a month is over...things seems to have settled down...I came to realise that we'll have to take one day at a time...
and with Shiva having to go back to KL again...and me leaving to Hyd..and Dhriti going back to school...March is one month to look forward to...:)

Life now is in snatches...between baby feeds and bigger baby's tantrums...
Worried about the bigger one...scared that she might be neglected...
Worried about the smaller one...is he getting enough milk...is he putting on weight...is he fine...? Coz again...if there are 100 things that can go wrong with a baby...your first child shows you 50 of them and when you think you are prepared and all set your second child comes in and shows you the OTHER 50...
Babies are like that...!!!


So...the chaos continues.....